i'm so horrible, or no maybe the word to describe will be selfish.

this few days have been like shit.
we're stucked in this problem that we cannot progressed.
xinyu should be the one suffering the most i think.

the first time i seen her cry was because she failed her end of year maths paper!
i was damn angry at the time when she cried because she cried in front of mr vijay.
but that time, everyone was beside her, giving her encouragement and consoling her.

the second time i seen her cry, she was so miserable.
i was damn upset too.
i cried with her.
there was someone that both of us will never want to disappoint her.
she was the one that brought us so far, in terms of basketball, attitude, everything.
we appreciate wat she has done for us.
we want her efforts to pay off.

xinyu has disappoint her but i'm her biggest disppointment.
this feeling is so awful.


i felt like i'm the one making u feel so miserable.
maybe in the begining, i'm wrong
i'm so wrong that lead u to the wrong path
u said that " even my buddy dont agree, how will my other teamates agree"
that word " buddy" made me feel that i'm so shit.
as ur best friend, i did not give u the support u want from me.

no decision will satisfy both parties so now you yourself have to make the choice, your own decison. i'm not going to comment bout anything. choose the one u think it will be right and u'll never regret.
i guess i'll have to give u my support.


i'm selfish but i think so human beings are selfish.
you're selfish too.

sorry to disappoint you!